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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Back to School

Well, we started back to school yesterday after the two weeks we took off for our precious new arrival.  She is such a sweetheart and every time I hold her I can't believe she is here!  I didn't ever think I would even hold her, I was so sure that something was going to go wrong on delivery day and not only was I blessed with holding her, both of our lives were spared and we are now home together with no more complications.

I am slowly regaining strength after the massive blood loss.  The doctor did not give me a transfusion since that many time has its downside and resting and building up my own blood is a better option but I sure have felt it!  Thankfully I had prepared for the worst and had a whole 6 weeks of meals in the freezer.  The children already regularly are in charge of the kitchen, dining room, living room and their bedrooms so the only parts of the house that are suffering are the bathrooms, garage, halls, mudroom, and our master bedroom.  Oh well, it will come.

Of course a salesman had to come walk in through the garage this morning and knock on the back door. Why? I'm not sure.  Must've known I had piles of laundry all over the floor waiting to wash since the washing machine started leaking badly and I had to stop doing laundry....

Feeling sluggish about getting back to schoolwork.  It is definitely a little more trying having so many little ones asking for attention as well as trying to keep the older ones focused.  Yesterday we only made it through workbooks and Bible class but today it looks like we'll be able to enjoy our social studies and science classes also.

We are using Beautiful Feet Books for social studies this year and Noeo Science.  Loving them! Next year I hope to get the Winter Promise curriculum ( for social studies if we can afford it.... I have most of the curriculum finished for next year and most of the books ordered.  Just need to swallow the big Winter Promise package yet :)

Well, the little one is calling to be fed again so I will go!

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Starting Up

I have many times thought of starting a blog, hopefully to encourage other moms and to receive feedback from my readers, but everything seems to take up so much of my time already.  Everything seems to become a distraction to pull me away from reading my Bible, from spending time meditating and praying to the Lord.  Yet, in the recent past I have had several things happen to me that I want to share with others and/or receive feedback on me.  Please bear with me. I have never blogged before :o)
A little about my family and I.  We belong to a conservative Christian denomination which I will not name but it is based on a Calvinistic belief of salvation, election and justification.  We are dairy farmers and we homeschool our children.  We have 6 children, ages 1 week to 8 years old. 
I have struggled many times over the state of my soul and this will come up throughout.  I sometimes think I am just a doubting Thomas and I need more faith and other times I think I am like one of the "pilgrims" in John Bunyan's Pilgrims Progress who came down the easy side path or over the wall and I need to go back and find the wicket gate again.  Is it the devil talking? Trying to make me think nothing is real? Or wasn't it real? Did I base my salvation on mere experiences?  Sometimes it is so dark and hard and cold inside I think it is just as it was when I was a rebellious teenager and I have never really changed.  But yet, in the past week, when I was facing death as I was hemorraghing after giving birth to our sweet new baby girl, I could hold on to a promise the Lord gave me that morning in one of the Psalms, and which our children had been learning the Psalter on "God is our refuge and our strength, our ever present aid, and therefore though the earth remove, we will not be afraid...."  This song played over and over in my head as the doctor fought to save my life and my future possibilties of having more children.  What a comfort it was!